Happy Holiday

Hongkong trip, with my daughter Sarah.

Macau casino

youth

Can you recognize these precious faces from the past?

Caterpillar or Butterfly ?

人間有愛

（脆弱的心 因为有爱才坚强
彷徨中的期待 因为有爱而值得信赖
人间有爱 不再孤单 封闭的心已然打开）

感谢你 给了我 温暖的拥抱
让我摆渡过 生命低潮
一颗心 装满爱 风再大不飘摇
学会把肩膀 借别人依靠

用真心 给了你 了解的微笑
陪着你解开 心事困扰
看着你 抬起头 泪停了 那一秒
感动在胸口围绕

我相信人间有爱值得去期待
长久封闭的心终究会打开
体谅会化解伤害 关怀会化解疑猜
最动人的爱 是信赖

I Know you are guided by Him to love whom HE loves.

God Bless

The presence of the living God

While facilitating Grief and loss class. A well hoped for peaceful session of 25 patients for sharing their feelings. During their grief process, mix of emotions with pain, resentment,relive experience of the tragic loss, guilt, and sobbing... A woman shared her story on how her 14 years old son died, soon after her father died. Could not find an answer why her love one just past away, one after another. Another young male patient shared about his encounters while in service, and how he had watched his pals got killed during combat. Then another patient was open his wound in sharing a tragedies of seeing his mom suicide in front of his presence.Gradually, one after another open up their tragic loss, so far it was a entrance to healing and a controlled environment grief. Until, the next young homosexual patient came up to speak, he held tight to his anger , because of memories paralyzing him from moving forward. He mentioned how his boyfriend had died, and how he was raped at the age of 11 years old by his father. Soon after, his rage blow out of proportion, within a few minutes, seemed to cause a plague of depression throughout the en tile classroom. As I glanced over at other patients and closely analyzed their facial expression, transfer from sad to deep emotional distorted. As I comforted them by explaining grief goes through many stages of emotion,they might have to experience , before they can come to acceptance, takes time to heal and it will get better within times .

After we practice breathing, and I essentially pray to God for their safety comfort, and merge to God 's healing by faith.I ask God for their strength on not to lose heart over what they are suffering . In God 's glory "what according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his spirit in your inner being. So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith-that you , being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breath and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpassed knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God". Ephesians 3:16.

Not long after this prayer, miraculously, the whole room is fill with serenity and I felt love in the classroom placed in God's embrace. The final moment, the intense spirit was replace in calm and beloved in His grace.

Fall

faith

Although our world crumbles.
Lord you remain whole
So extravagant, comforting, and humble.
I am warm in the cold.
Who am I? to question your destiny , why thousands are in agonies...
No pain? just sole apathy?
A striking reality, Jesus died with a cost.
You acknowledge each life...
While each hand is yearning for another.
Parents are seeking strife
one perished sister or brother.
all in your Kingdom above
surrounded by unfathomable love.
I am at peace with your plan
content with the unknown.
an hourglass with inconsistent Sand
I cease with worries , but I am home.

What shall we do?

Recently I serve as a Drug and Alcohol addiction Counselor, I found so much joy and gratification when seeing addicts have turn around their disrupted behavior and change to become a productive people to society. Best of all they connected back to God, look to God 's way for their joy, faith , hope and love. I was so thrill and counting my blessing for His calling that has placed on me.
After recovery Addicted leave the treatment center, then I will do follow up in nurturing them, guild them to stay focus on the right path in staying sober. Unfortunately the story of recovery addicted going thought mood swing, from being depress to anxiety during Alcohol/other drug withdraw, it should be a natural and expected. Gradually leading to needy, compulsive and obsessive behavior. As these emotion begin to weight heavily on me , over an extended period of time. Due to all their frustration, anger and tension build up, causing addicts to cry out for their healing shelter like home. Instead they come straight at me as their confidant, and rescue. Oh! my thoughts of fear, anxiety and devastation are race out of control. No! I do need my boundary to stop being their enabler. As I feel hurt, sorrow and despair. I was detached , and disappointed at the situation and myself.

During Sunday service, Pastor Leaf share a quote: Repentance is the beginning of enter God's Kingdom.
"turn to me and be saved, all your ends of the earth, for I am God, and their is no other" Isaiah 45:22. Threshold the pain in repentance. Oh my gosh....! I pray and pray, but totally forgot that I need to humbly bow down and repent of my Sin. How often do we forget to repent for our daily Sin ,before asking Him for blessing/guidance?
The important point is to empty out my laundry list to Him. the longer I confess my arrogant, the more I discover that " I " can not do it all to change others. After all, it is God's mission, and I am just a messenger, a worker on the field. The harvest is the end product for the Lord.
Gradually, after repentance, I realize that it is not my power, not my action, not my wisdom, not my expert, not my love nor my compassion that can change their addicts to sanitise. it is no longer " my " . It is all His glory!
"Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death" ll Corinthian 7:10.
Then what shall we do?
"Humble yourselves, therefore under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time"IPerer 5:6. Christ is our Redeemer. His love to us never fails! When we place our faith in God, all things are possible.