I m nothing without you, Lord!

"...that you may declare the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light. Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy." Ipeter 29b

Anxiety,upset,disappointment, sadness could cause so much sorrow---which escalate to chronic or traumatic stress. As stress increases, health and performance actually improve. Stress is an elevation in a person's state of arousal or readiness, cause the brain sounds an alert to the adrenal glands. The adrenals answer by pouring out the first of the major stress hormones called "adrenaline" . It evolved with the prime directive of ensuring our safety and survival mechanism. The pulse begins to race as the adrenaline steps up the heart rate, sending extra blood to the muscles and organs. Physically we feel uptight, and stiff. When oxygen rushes in as the bronchial tubes in the lungs dilate; extra oxygen also reaches the brain, which helps keeping us alert. During the stage of the fight or flight response, the brain releases natural painkillers called " endorphins".
However, when the stress response is active for a long period of time, or often accrue, it can surely damage the cardiovascular, immune, and nervous systems. Sometime develop to nervous breakdown.If stress is extreme and not managed, some individuals experience post traumatic stress disorder.PTSD.
The breakdown of my relationship with my long time partner is an awakening of my spirit. This broken pieces journey led me to a breakthrough in my spiritual life.
People develop patterns of response that are as varies as the individuals.As for me, I felt betrayed, disrespected, disgraced, even violated my trust. Piece by piece shatters in front of me, and feeling so devastating that there is nothing I can do, or say to stop it. Identify the helplessness,shame, guilt, fear, every emotion just pile up around me. The only strength that sustained me is surrender all this insanity to God, knowing that Jesus is my shelter, my Rock and my comfort. My relied on our Heavenly father is growing strong. We can only rely on the spirit, not the flesh. It took me deepened my faith. It opened my heart and mind. Be still and know God is with me.
My bad, others are fail, but His good, and He is faithful!
"Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret,
but worldly sorrow brings death" II Corinthians 7:10.
Our worldly life , crumble and fallen, it will always disappoint us. Now I recognize that abundantly increase for God in " But blessed is the on who trusts in the lord, whose confidence is in Him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit." Jeremiah 17:7.
Gradually I understand that my life fell apart one piece at a time. Piece by piece in one situation, one lesson, one experience, one mistake, one circumstance, one revelation at a time; Until my realization of spiritual awareness, a child of God. A spiritual warfare. It 's time for a test of faith
by God.

Happiness is not something we wish for,or hoping others to make us happy.
Rather, happiness is a quest in a person's state of readiness, to design for, and set our open mind to embrace it .
God granted us with fruit of the spirit which including: peace, joy, and love...the ultimate happiness is rejoice in God's blessing!