Today,tomorrow and always

My love for my mom, and my love for my daughter ...are timeless, endless, and forever more to come.

While I was helping my daughter to prepare SAT , and college planning task, such was an exciting, yet distress period . This means that she is going to leave home to attending college sooner than I expected. So this year and and half ahead, my mission is to be her mentor, to influence her with my cord value, and my believe. (not that I haven't done that, it is just to emphasis my moral believe). Although raising a child, it should be provide the best to her/his welfare, and not about me. However,my concern is that if I do not inspire her with my thinking, my culture, ethic, and fundamental believe, during the time when my child needs my nurture, my love, my way of making decision, determination, that whatever answer she was longing for, and did I neglected to set a profound example ? If I had set a good blueprint for her future? . In the study knowing that Parent have a major influence directly to our kid's future.

The truth is that have I done enough of biding a loving, guiding, understanding, and accepting attitudes, and behaviors toward her?

As much as I would like her to have a spiritual, rewarding , meaningful and prosperous life. To live in a healthy, happy, responsibility and functional balance life. Despite how much I would like to protect her , to care for her; after all she is her own individual that master her own destiny, with God's grace.

Today, we are bombard with media, TV, reality show, radio, Internet, pop culture songs, these are feeding us to experiencing an epidemic of toxic emotions. It is far too easy to pop a pill or smoke marijuana or shooting Heroin than work on the emotions that shoot thought us in the battlefield of the mind. What about peer pressure, peer life, many voices that we have allowed to control us, to limit us. Have I as a parent helping her to shaped her destiny, or just have her circumstances shaping her?

My dilemma is should I spend more quality time in her study? her choice of career picking? her school location? her world including the friends she hangs out with, her activities, her thoughts by siting down slowly and be a good listener. Unplug my goals and dreams and totally focus on her.To do that, It sound so needy, and no life.

For one thing, it is easier to be my child's friend, no limitation, no boundaries, total cave in. May be that will have a good parting.

Another thought is do more together , spend more time to do something with her that she would like, be more creative? fun, inspiring , time for the heartfelt bond moment. It is the importance time, I need to care, to build , to allow my love to flow to her freely, in a completely unselfish, and absolute giving my very best, before I would send her away from home.